{4} What are you afraid of

Day 4. What are you afraid of

Unfortunately, this was an easy one for me.

I am afraid of losing my family. 

I have been through a big loss before. 

And I'd be lying if I said I hadn't thought about it happening again. 

The day Will died we had been married exactly 1 year, 6 months. 

So when it came time for Travis and I to have been married that long,

I had a pit in my stomach.

The day Will died, Zachary was 9 months and 1 day old.

So when it came time for Tyler to hit that "milestone",

again, I was nervous.

Their are plenty more dates that I think about. 

Of course, the biggest being January 28th.

I always seem to wake up at 5 am on that morning,

because that is the time I woke up almost 10 years ago.

The day that my life changed forever. 

I'm not afraid of dying. I know where I will go when I die. 

But I hate the thought of my kids growing up without their dad. 

I hate the idea of my kids growing up without me. 

And I sure hate the idea of not having these amazing guys in my life.